OK so I have had an exciting last two weeks, I am lucky I know without a doubt God has blessed me with a wonderful husband (even when I think I want to beat him) but he truly is a blessing to me and my girls.
And I have to admit he spoils me rotten, with things, and then with just being there when I need to rant and rave about nothing at all.
This past two weeks he spoiled me BIG time.
He bought me a new Tahoe. With alot of bells and whistles.. I never had a sun roof in my life. But I have one now! I never even thought I would drive a vehicle with a DVD player in it. I do now!
Then to top it all off, he told me to go ahead and get that LASIK done that I had dreamt about for the longest time. So I did and I am amazed at this procedure, in 10 minutes my vision went from what the heck does that sign say 10 feet in front of me, to WOW it is 5:10 I could read that clock. I could READ THE CLOCK! I am blessed, but I know that even if I still had to wear glasses or continue to drive that BRIGHT YELLOW Mustang, I would love him just the same. He ROCKS

My life....
I am happy in my life now, I found peace with myself. and it was not easy. I went through a time when I was selfish and sad. I lost sight of who I was and where I wanted to be. In the mean time, my daughters suffered, I thought that they would not even notice the break in our lives, I was wrong. That was a long time ago, and since the time that I sent their world spiraling out of control, they have healed to an extent. We found happiness in the most hectic of circumstances, we are a family of 7, yep SEVEN. My DH is my best friend, he is the one that completed me, I can tell him anything and he loves me for me, not because he has to. Not because he is the father of my children, or my father. He loves me because his heart tells him to. Never in my life could I look at a man and say that I would lay down my life for him, or that if something were to happen to him, that I would care for him, no matter what it is was. He is the one that I could say without a doubt I would give anything for him.

I want to continue to heal in my heart because I do fear that I applied a bandaide and at anytime the tape will loose it's grip and I will spiral out again. I don't feel it will. But with life sometimes we don't see things coming.